Jan 29, 2010
T-Minus 2 days and counting
Well here i am, posting for the first time. My Mom and I are double checking that i have everything i need, reviewing the list of "recommended" items to bring and making sure everything that is supposed to be waterproof is (her idea, not mine). I leave at 3 o'clock from San Francisco (flying with Delta, if anyone cares), traveling from SFO to Amsterdam, then to Paris, and from Paris to Florence--arriving at 5:45 Italian time (8:45 A.M. for you readers). Financially i am all ready to go with 90 euros in my pocket. Thats the good news. The bad news. however, is that it cost me a $135 to get the ninety euros. Rough exchange rate.
These last couple of days have been really easy, a lot easier than i thought they would be. I guess i'm just so sick of being nervous that i'm just not anymore. It's almost like i'm sick of all of the build up, i just want to go go go. I honestly thought i would be terrified of leaving the day before, but i'm not. It probably has something to do with the fact that i've traveled a little and out of all the places of ever gone Florence was, without doubt, my favorite. The people, the food, the art, even the weather, i know i will love. The only thing that i am unsure about is my room mates, which happen to be the only American influence that i am stuck with (irony?).
The part that i am most excited about is i get to live according to who i want to be, without trying to appease all of the "loyalties" i get so caught up in (its the curse of being a "6", for you enneagram enlightened readers). I don't have to worry about school persona's, friendship responsibilities, being an older brother, being a good son, grandchild, and/or nephew. Its not that i don't love fulfilling these roles, its just that i have never had the opportunity to live true to myself, only for myself--which could probably be more accurately called "living free from the world". I want to see what its like to live in a world where its just God and I. Maybe ill fall flat on my face (doubt it, but maybe) or maybe ill live exactly the same as i do here (again, doubt it but maybe). Thats the best part, a chance to escape from the all of the social expectations in a different world, one which seems to value "self expression" more than anything else. Perfect for me.
All of these questions wont be answered until i get there, and lucky for me, that is just 24 hours away...
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These last couple of days have been really easy, a lot easier than i thought they would be. I guess i'm just so sick of being nervous that i'm just not anymore. It's almost like i'm sick of all of the build up, i just want to go go go. I honestly thought i would be terrified of leaving the day before, but i'm not. It probably has something to do with the fact that i've traveled a little and out of all the places of ever gone Florence was, without doubt, my favorite. The people, the food, the art, even the weather, i know i will love. The only thing that i am unsure about is my room mates, which happen to be the only American influence that i am stuck with (irony?).
The part that i am most excited about is i get to live according to who i want to be, without trying to appease all of the "loyalties" i get so caught up in (its the curse of being a "6", for you enneagram enlightened readers). I don't have to worry about school persona's, friendship responsibilities, being an older brother, being a good son, grandchild, and/or nephew. Its not that i don't love fulfilling these roles, its just that i have never had the opportunity to live true to myself, only for myself--which could probably be more accurately called "living free from the world". I want to see what its like to live in a world where its just God and I. Maybe ill fall flat on my face (doubt it, but maybe) or maybe ill live exactly the same as i do here (again, doubt it but maybe). Thats the best part, a chance to escape from the all of the social expectations in a different world, one which seems to value "self expression" more than anything else. Perfect for me.
All of these questions wont be answered until i get there, and lucky for me, that is just 24 hours away...
462795209
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